Sunday, April 30, 2006
there are times when i cant handle it anymore.
there are things which i cant choose to ignore.
sometimes it's really hard to find a confidant, becos nobody will understand all the shit im going through. i know im strong. seriously, i feel no one else can tolerate it the way i do. there are times when i just feel like giving up. but i cant. thats the fucking struggle.
i dont like to blog about such things becos i dont want people to pity me. yes, im damn prideful. i dont want people to think the downside of me. im always so freaking self-conscious. i hate to look dumb, i dont wanna be embarrassed.
that is it. if you wanna know anything, ask me. i might tell you if i feel like it. but it's just the usual domestic stuff.
anyway, im fine now! dont worry, peeps. i get over things real quick (:
"Faaaaaahed" @ 8:49 PM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Awesome stuff (:
http://projectorfilms.blogspot.com/
http://dannystack.blogspot.com/
Im stucked. Im stucked. Im stucked.
If all things fail, Im going to use Ken's sick idea. But you won't wanna know about it.
If Jennifer punches my face, I shall kick Ken's ass.
AAHHHHHHHHH. I can't sleep, wtf.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 4:29 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I realised that I have a bo liao blog.
Im a bo liao person, hence i would write bo liao stuff in my bo liao blog.
Wtf, why am i a bo liao person?!
part TWO
Okay, scratch that please, it's retarded.
Sometimes i hate to blog becos im too lazy to do so. When i blog, i get so long-winded that i don't know where to stop. And i hate it when i get long-winded, becos i too damn lazy.
AAHHHHHH. Im contradicting myself. NEVERMIND. But you get idea, right?
"Faaaaaahed" @ 12:40 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
So far.. so good.
We finally got down to some exercise! Played badminton with Melissa and Weisheng last fri. By the time Qian qiang arrived, my arm was aching like hell and he deliberately gave far shots so I had to exert more strength in order to win. Or rather, not lose. Then we went to the gym as well.
Omg, i was fucking embarrassed there.
Saw qixiang and alan while i was standing around like buddha, waiting for some people to fall off the threadmill so that i can have a go. Kidding. Then the gym instructor saw me and asked me what i wanna do. I told him that i wanted some equipment that i can use with my left arm only, cos my right arm's basically screwed. He was stucked with a strange expression right there, not knowing to laugh or cry and say there's no such equipment. Oh well, so i just moved around.
When i was sitting at the hamstring builder (im making this up) talking to mls, the instructor came again and told me how to use that equipment and all. I never wanted to use that! I just wanted somewhere to sit. Melissa and Qq was laughing like hell cos they said I looked like a handicapped. Wtf. The instructor wanted to adjust the seat but damn, my height was out of range! The lowest range was 157cm.
Every equipment's lowest range is 157cm )):
Overall, i did have some fun this week. Watched a bball match at SBC, had dinner with my dear Huilin. Did some exercises. Ate a dozen of oreos. That's why. Muahaha.
Met someone new online. Hmm, maybe not that new either. But he's kinda nice to talk to (:
"Faaaaaahed" @ 2:29 AM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
School is turning from boring to unbearable. Wtf.
i can't imagine i have to live like this everyday for the rest of the year. Bring me back to holidays. I want my sakae people and money.
i've had constipation for more than a week, to the extent that i have to take laxatives. But now i've been shitting like siao. What am I to do?
i want to change my blogskin again, it's getting boring. Wait till i got the hang of flash and other applications then im going to do one psychotic one.
Say only. You think I so free is it?
I wanna go somewhere faraway and take pictures and post it as my blog header. Sigh. If only life is fuss-free.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 2:41 PM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
It was quite a dumb day today. Haha. I went back to get my pay cheque and stayed there till they closed. No aunties in the kitchen today and the guys were like crazy! I was there as if back to work, except that I weren't in the uniform and on the frontline serving customers.
I haven't been this happy for ages. Today we were just having fun talking and laughing in the kitchen, Zor tried to splash water on to the manager when he was cleaning lah. Damn stupid. I didn't know that they were not happy with her too. Actually she is not that detestable lah. Maybe it's because I'm no longer a worker there and she can't throw her weight around in front of me anymore. I was just walking in and out of the kitchen and pantry while I saw those puzzled faces on the customers. Amusing man! Mandy didn't really care that I was in the kitchen and she threw those order chits and ask me to pass to the chefs.
I liked these people cos they talked to me like I'm one of them. I liked it because there's no stress in cultural differences among us. Though excluding times where they converse in cantonese while I relied helplessly on the only 'ngo hm sek teng' hoping to shut them up and speak mandarin instead. So everytime they see my face in the kitchen, they bo bian must speak in mandarin so that I don't feel disrespected. Hahaha.
I have learnt so much during this short peroid of my time there. These young people who are only in their early twenties come to Singapore to work not because *ahem* our currency is more than theirs, but to actually pursue their goals and get exposed to life. I'm so misunderstood about them previously that I feel guilty come to think of it. Some of them are diploma holders. My comrades! Weng handled teppanyaki, sushi, sashimi and cooked food, meaning everything, in the restaurant. Now that he've learnt all he wants in two months, he wants to quit and learn baking now. Work to them isn't work, it's learning.
I talked to CK after work today, man! Little did I realise that he is so knowledgeable! I had fun talking to him. We talked about movies and music, not superficially, but more technical like what I'm learning in school. And he knows so much more than me. From what he've said, I can see that he's a reeeeeeeeaaaaaal observant person. Who watches movies for cinematography more technically besides media students like us? He can sing, play the piano, clarinet, saxaphone, all types of guitar, drum and do mixing! He used to be a DJ and bartender, and now he's learning to cook! He's been here less than a week and he've moved from sushi and cooked food already. Oh no, I see a real talent here! (not to mention that he's cute too. tee hee hee)
I have to apologise for my previous entries regarding Mandy, my new manager. She may sound rude and nag like hell, she's actually quite easy to get along with. Her angry and bossy tone is just her way of joking. But I'm not going to remove the entries cos I want you all to know how narrow-minded I was )): How can I be so skeptical when I hasn't really get to know her well enough? Though some of her actions really do put me off...
Still, I must say these three weeks in Sakae is one of the best parts of my life. I've learnt soooooo much here, mostly about people relations and perceptions. Most importantly, never make hasty conclusions! Like what I've done to Mandy. Mrs Elizabeth Tang should slap me for forgetting this. Lol.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 3:17 AM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
I've been alot happier recently. Haha. Work is much more fun when you take the initiative to talk to people.
My colleagues say that I'm siao to talk so much to them only when I'm leaving today. Lol. That makes them miss me more when I leave. Anyway, life has been pretty much mundane except that my mum keep forcing me to eat cos I've lost some weight due to work. She thinks that I'm turning anorexic. Siao ah? I'm anorexic? NO WAY man. I lose all appetite when that revolting face of my new manager appears in my mind.
Work is OK lah. Except that my new manager still sucks more than ever. Oh damn, I have never seen such a fucking rude person before. I have to sign a resignation letter before I left today and I try to catch her attention while she was at the counter. She saw me and put her hand up immediately and said "BYE." in a fuck-off tone. WTF?! You think I wanted to say bye to you?! Crazy woman! I can't fucking stand you anymore and I want to quit. Quick give me the papers lah!
After all the paperwork, she saw Wei min reporting for work and instantly change her tone and start swooning in his presence. She even tried to pick his pimples that day! WTF she trying to do?! Gross woman. She is in her 30's already and still wanna 老牛吃嫩草?! ?! Wei min is only around my age leh!
I don't know what I have done to offend her or what. She's always impatient and impolite to me. I'm fucking happy when I see that she's not in everytime I work. What's more, today is gonna be my last day and I won't have to stand her disgusting face and chao attitude anymore. If I ever have to go back, I'll be back as a customer! So she better be careful or I'll complain her ass off and send her back to Malaysia!
"Faaaaaahed" @ 3:43 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
FUCKED UP. DAMN, I have never been so pissed off like this.
I hate work. It seems like everyone is trying to drive me to my limits.
I have just finished serving the customer, Manager say I never clear table.
I have just finished walking around the customers, Manager say I stand there like buddha.
I am not supposed to bill so I ask 'some girl' to help. She say I order her to do things.
I am supposed to get Chuka Hotate Gunkan, Auntie say she don't want to make. Ask me take from conveyor belt. But it has just went out, so I might as well get Chawamushi and Cha Soba first instead of standing there and wait, which is like the dumbest thing to do. Then she asked me whether I have taken already, I said no. WTF, I don't know why the sushi just suddenly appear before us then she took from the belt and commented, "
唉，小姐就是小姐..." Then some guy went on adding "Ya lor, 小姐 mah."
WTF?! You said you have just put it on the belt that means it's not coming back to the kitchen THAT FAST right? You think the belt 20 cm only or moves at 20km/h? Then I must stand there and wait like idiot, cannot go and take other things first huh? Isn't that common sense to do so? The sushi also came back AFTER I have finished taking Chawamushi and Cha Soba PLUS talking to a retarded auntie what?!
KNN, kitchen auntie also bully me. I'm leaving this Sunday. I can't wait to get my ass out ASAP but I have no choice. Have to give one week's notice. Just yesterday I was telling Melissa I felt a bit '不舍得' to leave. WTF, 不舍得 my leghair please!
I will not forget those who have been good to me, never will I forget those who tries to drive me to my limits.
You say I 记仇? YA LOR, I'M LIKE THAT. I may forgive, but I will not forget. It serves as warning as well as an reminder to myself.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 1:37 AM
